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Less than a month until I move back to California!! I can’t believe it. Well I can, since I’ve wanted to go back for so long but it’s just so crazy how quickly things in life can change and how drastically. I’m so anxious, and nervous, and excited about what my future holds. Craziness in my life right now! Whoa ~
Seriously, from here on out I need to save every penny of my money, Every single one or I will be so poor when I get to California and that is not an option.
I want to be skinny! And I’m horny. And sad. This is not good.
I’m usually one to let things go because I don’t like conflict at all and a positive mind is this best mind. But this time, I just cannot. I cannot shake this. And I will be stubborn. It is defiantly having an effect on you, I can tell and I have somewhat been at peace. I must stay strong!
Everything is better hiiigh
I’m not that sad today. But I’m annoyed, and I’m frustrated. I’m also confused. These emotions still make me want to cry, although I’m trying to hold back. On top of all that I’m lonely. And empty.
Today was heavy. It was a good day, I made good money at work. Things just got super real after work. I love all the beautiful people I’m close to in my life. Even if they just recently made there way into my life 9 months ago. It is not hard to tell the real from the fake. It makes me feel good to be able to give people support that I love, and sharing my experiences with these people and we both just care so much. I don’t know. I don’t even make sense right now. But this is how I feel. I feel like I’m having this big enlightenment and grasping reality. Maybe I am crazy.
Can I just be a suicide girl already!?